Ok I know someone is gunna see this so just bare w me but I gotta rant to myself lol
So it’s become v evident within the past year or so that I’ve gained a significant amount of weight. I was in a very abusive relationship (both physically and mentally) with my ex and at that time I was at one of my lowest weights. I was absolutely miserable and he withheld food from me and threatened to leave if I gained weight so bc of that I developed an eating disorder. Finally we split for good in December and since then I’ve gained a lot of weight. Ppl have noticed esp family and everyone comments on it. The ED thoughts DIDNT go away. My body is just bigger and it’s almost worse. Anyways I am feeling so much guilt bc even at my lowest weight I still hated myself. It’s so exhausting having to fight with my mind about it every second and feel guilt from eating. I’m home visiting family now and I am constantly being told I looked better last year bc no one knows what I was actually dealing with back then. Idk man life just sucks rn lol
but between me and u……. i didnt even have a favorite color until she yelled out yellow!! she was hella excited n smiling like a little kid. so i told her she was right and i havent seen yellow the same since, its in everything. i could probably live in it now.
this is gonna sound stupid but i’m amazed at baby capybaras bc they really truly are baby capybaras. there r so many animals you guys. so many where the babies look like tiny primordial creatures compared to the mature ones but baby capybaras r just little capybaras. they just start out like that. you know what i mean
